Anj

Hey buddies!  How are you all?  I am doing fantastic!  I got the call last night that I finally got the job that I have been hoping to land.  The official title is Community Liaison of the Children Services Department of Pennsylvania Counseling Services.  I will begin on October 5th and I am so excited.

But reflecting on getting this job and Nancy’s newest blog has really got me to thinking.  See, I had to go through 5 different interviews to get this position.  Yep, FIVE!  It was crazy.  There are times that I could have given up but I really wanted this.  I made sure that after each interview I followed up with a thank you letter and then a phone call.  I made sure that my hair was dyed and cut, my nails were polished and my interview suits were ironed.  I made sure that when I went in for each interview I exuded confidence and  had all my “ducks in a row.”  I had a game plan.  That game plan has landed me the job.  And not just any job, but one that I can make a career out of.  So logging on to BS today and seeing Nancy’s blog I clicked on it to see what words of inspiration she had.  (Cuz you know she always does.)  And there it was, I don’t know how I forgot it, but weight loss takes work!  It takes a game plan people!  It takes the confidence and perseverance that most goals in life take.  It takes WANTING IT and then going out there and working for it.  I am ashamed to admit that I did forget that.  I have been doing it all half assed for the past 6 months.  How familiar does this sound:

I don’t need to journal my food intake…I can ballpark it and be fine

It’s okay if I have more diet soda today, I will get my water in tomorrow

It’s raining/snowing/blowing/too cold/too hot (pick one) to workout today

I have to take care of the husband/kids/laundry/housekeeping/shopping (again pick one) before I can make time for myself

Over the past half a year, I have used these excuses many times over.  Where would I have been if I would have stuck to plan all this time?  Where would I have been if I held myself accountable?  Who do I have to blame for not doing so?  ME!  Now my work clothes are a bit snug, my complexion is crappy, I don’t have much energy and I have a week and a half to get myself back in gear.

I don’t know how much I will be able to get on here, the laptop and BS aren’t very friendly.  But I am going to Wal-Mart today and getting myself a cute little journal and start logging my food again.  I may even get a cute new water bottle too. 

BIG HUGS BUDDIES!

For those of you that don’t know me, I have been a buddyslimmer for along time.  Some life changes have sent me off the BS path but now I am back and more determined than ever to stay!  I was just talking to Kerstin in the Wildcat forums and was telling her about an old blog that I wrote.  While I was looking for it, I read over some of my past blogs.  I guess I didn’t realize how much blogging meant to me.  It has really shown how much I have grown as a person.  The ups and downs of my life are there for everyone to read.  The times where I laughed with you and cried for you.  The times where you hopefully laughed with me.  The trials and tribulations of life, not just weight loss.  I am here to face the fact that when I go to adjust my ticker tomorrow (after several months of not doing so) it is going to show a gain.  Am I proud of that?  Nope.  What I am proud of though is that I am going to put the gain on there and know that I’m not going there again.  And if I do…then so be it.  I have said it before and I will say it again…This is a journey!  There are going to be high roads, low roads, and roads that are as flat for as long as the eye can see.  But not one step goes without change.  I am not the same person I was two years ago.  That change came with putting one foot in front of the other.  So post by post, blog by blog, inch by inch, pound by pound I am going to reach my goal.  I am going to “do whatever needs doing, whenever it needs done whether I feel like it or not.”  And I am going to be proud of myself as I am of each one of you for walking this road with me.

Have a wonderful night buddies!  It’s time for this Cat to get some beauty sleep.

xoxoxo

Well, that’s exactly how I feel.  I feel like I have come home to my Buddyslim family.  And after three months away, I need you guys more than ever!  It was so good to see alot of my good, good buddies still being active here!  Of course, I want to hear from each and every one of you so you can fill me in on how you have been. 

As for me…I’m not even sure where to begin or even what all to get into in a blog so it doesn’t become a novel.  I guess I will just give a general synopsis of it all and if you have any questions or want further detail you can just give me a yell.

1.  Tim FINALLY got a job!  He got laid off last November and just started his job last night!  Whew!

2.  I am STILL laid off.  It’s been 6 months and it’s been tough.  I think that’s one reason I withdrew from here.  I just didn’t want to be “bothered” with anything.

3.  My father-in-law finished his chemo.  He pulled through it well, but goes into the hospital today for surgery to remove the rest of the cancer.

4.  I am looking at taking some different paths in life.  I was supposed to go back to school yesterday to be a massage therapist, but my funding didn’t come through in time.  So that isn’t going to happen.  However, I may still go back in January, I just haven’t decided for what. (Haven’t decided what I want to be when I grow up)  I am actively pursuing being a surrogate again.  I have a conference call with a couple on Thursday and I’m really excited about that   On the job front, I have a third interview today for a job that I’m pretty excited about, but the pay sucks…at least for the first 90 days.

5.  I haven’t been on the bike much this year.

6. Okay, okay, enough stalling.  Buddies, I really fell off the wagon.  I know lots of people have said that before, but if I honestly look at things,  it has probably been a year since I have been entirely on  plan.  Last September I had some problems in my marriage…I was able to maintain where I was for 6 months, but wasn’t that interested in losing.  The last 6 months have been hell.  It’s been one pound lost, two pounds gained.  I’m afraid that when I sit down to seriously look at the numbers, the gain in the past year will be in the double digits.  I refuse to get a number until Friday though!   I also think that I knew I wanted to come back here and I knew that I was going to get serious about this again and so I said “what the hell” and totally went off course this past week.  *sigh* Not just off course, but I think I took a trip into the Bermuda triangle just so “the course” couldn’t find me.  Ladies,  we are talking about eating ice cream in the middle of the night and having a beer for a “snack.”  Nancy, this is the tough love I was talking about.  LOL

With all of that being said, here is the funny thing…no matter how far I have went astray, I KNOW I can do this!  I did it before, I can do it again!   I CAN be successful!  I WILL be successful!  I am not going to let anyone (myself being the #1 culprit) stand in my way. I just need a game plan that fits into my schedule.  I don’t know how much I can be on BS but plan to check in with my Wildcats at least every other day.  I will post goals and I will follow up with them.  They may be small goals at first, and checking in regularly will be the start.  I will also work on reconnecting with all of you!  I miss you all so much!

Okay, so much for not writing a novel, I got to go get ready for my interview and will try to be back later!

Big hugs!

Anj